Another 5 Minutes not for Acads

Still not working. Been sitting in front of the computer for hours. :|

Am excited for tomorrow's CDC! What a great way to divert my attention away from acads lol.

I am looking forward to Wed., comments about my work will be discussed. But I hope I'm done with 167 hand outs and report by then. Well, I should be. It's the day of the report, I do not want to come unprepared. So why I am lazy to start working? It's human nature.

Rereading

I want to find old accounts and delete entries. I'm sure I would find things that would irk me lol. Just 5 minutes ago I thought I should delete those posts about the whatever we all call it - shit. But well, I have no energy to exert more effort on that subject matter. Simply put, I'm tired.

Now, what were those accounts and passwords? (doh)

090909

I've been lazy to update this page. Many, as in many, things have happened in the nation.

Mar backed out from the presidential race. Mikee Arroyo's interview was a mess and was irritating as hell. Erano "Ka Erdy" Manalo of INC died. And just in today, Nonoy Aquino announced his desire to run for president. He said he's "accepting the challenge". OH WELL. Let's see if he knows what he's doing...

I'm not so much inclined to give opinions about this. Hmm. Just updating! lol.

Friday Mall Day

Pam and I decided to watch KimmyDora yesterday. It was so hard to make other friends' schedules meet that we ended up not going with Gel and Ayee again. Good thing Ate Kamille went with us. Pam called her "Ate" Kamille as well that's why I asked thier ages to clear the thing up. Pam was a year older than Ate Kamille hahaha. Sometimes I wonder if Pam gets agitated or pissed when I joke about her age. I do not intend to insult her, I think it's kind of funny and fortunate in her part that she looks (and sounds and acts) the youngest. Lol.

Anyway, KimmyDora was just fine. The audience were entertained so much. Yes, it was kind of a slapstick comedy. Plus I've watched its trailer a number of times that many punchlines did not make me laugh anymore.

There was an unexpectedly huge crowd at the mall when we came out of the cinema. We thought it was a concert or something. Students all over the place from different schools, colleges and universities; there were some older people too. We were puzzled of what was happening so we asked the guard and she said Billy Crawford was the cause of all the commotion.

We went on to eat dinner thinking it really was Billy the crowd came for, talking about him having a huge fan base etc. Ate Kamille brought us to the toy store that sells FroYo. I had NY Cheesecake, Brownies and Graham clusters for toppings. Really delicioso!

We were waiting for the crowd to clear when we saw the photo op downstairs with a group. Just then we realized it was the Jabbawockeez that caused all the fuzz! Lol. That's why a crowd was so big. (As in believe me, it was already irritating to walk among that huge bulk of people, with that smell and all that ugh whatever you call that)

Ate Kamille was still waiting for some friends that's why we decided to play at Timezone for a while. Too bad we run out of credits just when I was about to horse race!

The journey home was a disaster. It's good that Pam and I were cool about it. I think I'm more patient these days. :)

"Woot!"

This sickness is making me agitated. I wish I get well soon! Haven't watched Kimmydora yet.

I just realized that I had enough entries about youknowwho. So there, I'm stopping here. Everything stopped between us, again there's no point in hanging on. :D

I finally used my new number just this afternoon. Woot! Now that's the finish line right?

On to more happy days!

The nth Summer Morning

I sometimes feel I cannot get through this. I still daydream of things with you, or remember happy moments. Then I think about how you think of me - that what I did was ridiculous, stupid, silly. I do not feel respect in those words. Who did not listen to who? It's too late now. I'm too pissed and frustrated. I did it, you did what was for me, the most painful; and you did not mind. Becuase for you it was not wrong. For you. And for him. It was the only thing important. I do not want to play the arguments all over again. You did not want me to leave but things were never the same again. I do not like how you treat me, think of me, talk to me. I cannot think of anything that makes me want to stay near you except the fact that I (you know what). But everytime I think about you I remember what you did, I question why can't you just do whatever would make me forget, why can't you understand that pain cannot be rationalized and all I want is for you to respect the pain you gave me, that I tried to endure. Respeto lang dun sa six years. I just wanted to live without seeing the very cause of my suffering. But you kept on insisting there was nothing wrong. You did me wrong, why should you set the parameters of what I should feel just because you think "there's nothing wrong"

Bottom line is, as what you've said a few weeks ago, it's too late.

I wish you didn't tell me you didn't want me to leave. It made (and perhaps, makes) me think twice. You are that someone. But again, you have your own life now, own plans and priorities. None of which I am a part of. How can I be your person?

That was my favorite picture of us by the way. I wish we could have stayed together, happy like those days. (Ugh. Shut up.)

Just a Little Push

I'm sick. I wish it goes away. is this the price of not attending my classes? I promise not to be absent, as much as possible. I do not want to be sick. It sucks! Sick sucks! (My brother is sick as well. Maybe because of non stop studying)

Anyway, I'm still struggling to feel ok about my plans. Just this afternoon, I seriously considered working out of the country. It may be a nice way to start and of course to earn money haha. I never thought about it because I always had someone in mind. That if that someone wants to migrate or work somewhere abroad, that's the only time I'd consider leaving this country. Of course that's never going to happen now. Oh, I can remember how I planned to decorate our space, how I asked if she wants to, how excited we were. Not! Ok enough. It's not good to think of those now. I must consume my prepaid credit so I can finally change my mobile number. Ciao!