"So you just do what you want huh?"

I might be feeling less of this. I may be in love but I'm just not focusing on it.


I hope that one day, I feel nothing when I see your name or your pictures. I hope one day I'll see you and it would feel like just seeing an old friend or school mate. And when I walk by the places where we ate, I'd remember the food and not you; then when I go window shopping, I'd look for what I want to buy instead of thinking I would've bought gifts for you if we were still together. When I plan a home, it would be just mine and no longer ours. The last bite would be mine, I wouldn't have to beg for anything. I may live my life alone, but at least less miserable than sharing you with someone who reminds me of not wanting to wake up in the morning.

You were wrong with me, just the same way that I'm wrong with you.

Near that Division

Well, what can I say? Weeks after my last entry, many things have changed. I'm at home today, no classes. I got my 199 grade already. I spared this blog from the rants of making and revising 199. I feel relieved actually.

I'm very near to that point where I'm going to say "I'm finally graduating" 199 was my biggest fear and I survived that course. Now I'm just waiting for Econ. and fixing papers. I'm thinking of how it feels to have no rant posts under the UP tag. I feel sadness.

I believe I'm going to worry about new things now. There are times in your life that you love so much and it hurts you to leave them all behind, but the choice to stay will not make you happy either. So it's better to move on.

BTW, I'm a registered voter already.

I want to enjoy these times. I want to mark an end, and a beginning. :)

Whatta Friday!

Thursday first: Araneta Center WiFi sucks! Super fail when I so needed it to function properly!

Anyway, Friday morning was very accommodating with sleepy heads like me. Cold and rainy. I woke up late but just in time to get my clothes at Eastwood. I rushed to school for 199 exam. Wow. It was just wow. My professor gives the most challenging exams. I love her! She's the best :D

I was not able to extend since I would be reporting for my next class (also the reason why I had to get my clothes). We started late because we were waiting for the ppt. It went well for me, too bad my group mate did not have ample time to deliver his report (exactly what happened to me when we first presented).

After class, I went to CMC to see Miko. Haven't seen her in a long time! Eastwood plans ditched, Pam (with the new haircut) came; then Carmi, then Grace, then Thesa. We ended up at Hub. Pam and Carmi weren't able to come though. We ate. Thesa and Grace left right away. And I was with Miko. Haha wow. I missed her. That's all I will and can say. :D



Just when I reached home, there was this weird guy who was just plain weird. Ugh. I do not want to lay down details but it's a little scary. :|

This is the Battle of our Generation

I have lost the enthusiasm in joining rallies. I always tell my friends, people who rally on the streets are fighting for different causes. If you see leaflets distributed by protesters, they look like a hodge podge of arguments. If I join, I really do not know my cause, I do not really know what I want to happen after the protest.

I always think of martial law. I wonder what it was like to fight for something. Iba kasi noon eh. Today, we are diverted by iPods, internet, Wii, malls, Starbucks, parties, movies, music, texting, blogging (ehem).

Noon limitado ang pinapalabas sa TV, pinapatugtog sa radyo, iniimprenta sa dyaryo. Ngayon, ilang chanels mayroon ng cable TV? Ilang banda at solo artists ang naririnig galing sa buong mundo? Sama mo na yung mga independent artists na pinakatatago sa playlist para astig ka dahil ikaw lang may kilala sa kanila. Ilang dyaryo ang mabibili? Tabloid, magazine, mga FHM, ganyan. Dami diba?

Diverted ang attention natin eh, kaya hindi tayo focused masyado sa pulitika.

They say when a society has fulfilled its material needs, it begins to focus its attention to issues of human rights, standard of living, environment protection etc. (Post-materialist) Habang materyal na bagay ang pinoproblema ng isang bansa, they fight about ideology. Dapat pantay-pantay, yung iba naman gusto kapitalismo, mga ganong bagay.

We haven't met our material needs. Nasa ideology struggle pa yata tayo eh. Kasi ang tao, ayaw ipaalis ang mga pabrika dahil mawawalan ng trabaho. Hayaan ng magtapon ng dumi sa ilog basta may makain paguwi.

When Ondoy took us by surprise, I realized we have a more serious battle than the martial law kids. Why? Because we are caught in the intersection of materialist and post-materialist problems. Hindi lang ito pagpapaalis ng diktador na nagpapahirap sa buhay ng mga tao, sa panahon natin ngayon, pati diktador pwedeng maging biktima. Yes, freedom is not a material thing pero part of ideology pa rin yun. (Liberal)

The damages brought about by Ondoy were partly due to geographical constants (Marikina, Cainta, and Pasig are valleys), partly caused by negligence of developers (areas were not fit for urban development), partly of corruption (800M from emergency fund spent on GMA's foreign trips) and last, our own irresponsibility as citizens.

Yung bibilhing mga damit sa Greenhills o Divi, ipapasupot pa pwede naman ilagay ng sama-sama sa bag. Yung basura pag walang makita na basurahan, pasimpleng laglag sa sidewalk o kaya paliliparin habang nakasakay sa sasakyan. Yung chewing gum idudura sa kalsada (natatapakan ko tuloy! Any ba yun.)

Hindi man natin kayang ilikas ang lahat ng tao palayo sa valleys, o ipakulong yung mga developers na nagsitayuan ng mga subdivision sa di masyadong safe na lugar, at singilin si Gloria sa mga ginastos nya sa ibang bansa, maging malinis na lang tayo. Even in our little ways we can save lives.

We should start fighting our generation's battle. Protect the environment.