Food and Friends

In line with being a happy kid, which is my almost-everyday-kind-of-kid lately, this is a post to acknowledge one of the major sources of my happiness -Friends and Food.

Last week, after hours well spent at Greenhills, Pma, Ayee and I together with Iya then followed by Ate Trish, Tita Grace and Tito Elmer (whew!) went to Eastwood to try out Sambokojin or for us, Sambojokin. :p

Actually what I loved most about our dinner aside from the fact that we got to grill our own food, was that we had tons of laughter! Like we were laughing so hard we didn't even care if the place was full of people munching on food. Tita Grace gave us that stern-trying-not-to-laugh look and said "Dinig na dinig ko kayo dun" (pointing at the far side of the room). Hah! Whatever. We were all having a good time and I know she was happy that we were all so hyped.

SamboJOKIN with Ayee and Pma

So yesterday, I planned to stay home and enjoy the weekend by fangirling (lol). My phone was actually turned off but I decided to charge it just in case my dad would try to call or text me. It was almost noon and I was still alone in the house. Not complaining though, I love alone times :) I immediately received a text message upon opening my phone. It was Pma telling me we're going out. I wasn't so sure if I wanted to since I came home a bit late the night before after having a few drinks with Erika at TK. I missed her so much! I love that I got to talk to her again about random stuff. I feel sad sometimes thinking we don't get to do that everyday anymore. Oh, and while we were drinking, she randomly said that we should watch the Incubus concert. Then in a sec, they were already playing Drive and we were laughing while enjoying the music. When it hit the chorus, people started to sing in unison "Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there..." like it was automatic. That made me smile, it was just plain good vibes!

Ok so going back to yesterday, I finally decided to go. We figured we'll just go to Makati since we have been to Ortigas and Eastwood already last week. We ended up eating at Bon Chon and having dessert at Cara Mia. Chicken wings and Gelato kept me smiling the whole time. The weather was perfect - not too hot but not so cloudy. We sat there for hours enjoying the quietness of the place. I loved it! No amount of food or alcohol or music can beat conversations with friends. :)

Killing time doing the it's just a face/phase post

I want more and more of this! I wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow :p

You think when you're bored

I forgot to share some stories, actually most of them, when I was with her yesterday. I also did not want to react to certain things. I'm not sure if it was just low energy, a bit disappointment bec we didn't catch the 7pm show, or I was just really playing passive on purpose. The movie was the highlight. I don't remember saying anything or hearing anything that's special. We held hands for a long time, that's what I always love. Actually, I'm not saying I didn't enjoy and love the night at all. I guess it was just a bit weird that don't remember the conversation. Plus, usually when we go out, I always have something to share with friends, something that she said in particular. That's how I pay attention when she speaks, that's how I remember her words. Even things that won't interest my friends, I can't help but tell them because really, that's what I remember. I guess I'm just not used to it - that I can't recall our conversation. I also considered the possibility that I wasn't interested with her stories but, I don't think that's it. At one point, I was looking at her and I thought, does this mean I'm loving her less?

It sucks when I think this way. I want to think free - free of doubts, free of fear, free of bad memories. It's hard to do that. It's hard to reach that stage.

Then people would say all these profound things about accepting, moving on, growing up, forgiving etc. Believe me, I've done everything I could think of to find a solution. I just want to feel okay. I want to stop worrying and geting hurt and worrying about getting hurt and getting hurt because I worry.

I want to stop thinking if this is right, if by doing this I look like a fool, if I deserve it, if I'm doing it right, if my efforts are not enough, if I'm not enough... whatever. I want to wake up and go to sleep each day with peace and confidence that later or tom I won't end up crying and feeling crappy. I want to try to be ok and actually achieve that.

I want to stop thinking about this. If could just stop feeling. If could just choose to respond to things that are purely pleasant and ignore those that bring uncertainty into my life.

You know, sometimes you just want it to be sunny without any effort, without any side effects and without any deep history.

Whatta Friday!

Thursday first: Araneta Center WiFi sucks! Super fail when I so needed it to function properly!

Anyway, Friday morning was very accommodating with sleepy heads like me. Cold and rainy. I woke up late but just in time to get my clothes at Eastwood. I rushed to school for 199 exam. Wow. It was just wow. My professor gives the most challenging exams. I love her! She's the best :D

I was not able to extend since I would be reporting for my next class (also the reason why I had to get my clothes). We started late because we were waiting for the ppt. It went well for me, too bad my group mate did not have ample time to deliver his report (exactly what happened to me when we first presented).

After class, I went to CMC to see Miko. Haven't seen her in a long time! Eastwood plans ditched, Pam (with the new haircut) came; then Carmi, then Grace, then Thesa. We ended up at Hub. Pam and Carmi weren't able to come though. We ate. Thesa and Grace left right away. And I was with Miko. Haha wow. I missed her. That's all I will and can say. :D



Just when I reached home, there was this weird guy who was just plain weird. Ugh. I do not want to lay down details but it's a little scary. :|

Up Hangover

I just thought yesterday, since I had nothing to say to N, that I was Carl and Pam was Russel. I kind of smiled as I read my own message and quickly sent it to Pam and Ayee. Ayee asked "So sino ako? Si Kevin?" I initially thought of Erika (solely because of the name itself) but I guess she doesn't want to be Kevin; and the role playing of Up itself. I said "Yes! Because you're makulay!" And we were the cast of Up already :D

The movie did not make me cry but it sure made me feel sad. Carl and Ellie - childhood sweethearts, dreamt of going to Paradise Lost,

got married, built their home,

and stayed together until Ellie left.

I'm Carl because I'm grumpy like that.

I'm Carl because...



I have to get a toy and a shirt!

Tamang Tama Lang!

Tamang TK lang!!! (woot)

It's Like Yin and Yang

Today was a good day!

When I try to recall today's events, I can say it was a balance of good and bad.

I got a 2.5, 3 and 4 for my thesis proposal. What a way to start the day right?

I reflected a bit at the library then decided to drop by Miko's room just for a short conversation. After all, I haven't seen her for days, not even talked to her through text. We had a pleasant, a little funny and "comforting" conversation as usual. (She said "ang ganda/sexy mo today...syempre pinapaganda ko lang pakiramdam mo" I told that to Erika and she said "Ganon talaga si Miko no? May pagka-blunt." And we both laughed!)

Erika, Thesa, Pam and I decided to have lunch at Philcoa. Jollibee! I ordered chicken and spaghetti as usual. Thesa ordered a feast! Burger steak with rice, mushroom soup, and yes, chicken and spaghetti too! I always enjoy having lunch with friends. It's fun, full of conversations of just about anything, and very light (or viri viri light in our acquired gay language).

Pam was sitting beside the window. We noticed she was making faces with a kid outside. She suddenly blurted "Bilhan ko kaya sya ng spaghetti?" I, was a little shocked. Yes, she gives coins to street kids, gave 20php to the scholar from Antipolo who sells 60php worth of ballpen and the likes; but it was a bit different buying food for a street kid. It's not like you give them something you can't finish or giving your extra sandwich, it just felt different. She called the little girl and they went to the counter together. Pam ushered the kid to the next table and the girl shyly started to eat her spaghetti (and mushroom soup from Thesa). Thesa said "Naiiyak naman ako kay Pam, na-touch ako." We laughed but yes, I, myself was touched as well. I asked Pam after, "French fries pa?" She just replied "Di na, wala na kong anju (money) haha"

I was amazed. I have never done that. I am usually apathetic to street kids. And if sympathetic, hanggang dun na lang yun. I am not generous to strangers. I wish I could be a more giving person. I will try!

We went back to U.P. at around 1:30 p.m. Since I was an hour early for my 193 class, I dropped by Antas and decided to buy a book: "Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl". It was just 100php; not bad for a bored person like me.

Pam texted me at around 3:30 p.m. She said they went with Joy to the pier. I quickly said I wanted to come. Too bad they were already at Taft Ave. I suddenly felt that I shouldn't have come to class. (haha) I was a little disappointed. I really wanted to come and see the pier (and you know, it's Manila!) Then I thought I really wanted a Mudslide (I've been telling Pam and Thesa that I wanted to drink but Ministop Philcoa didn't have any).

After class, I asked Miko to drink with me and that I particularly wanted to drink a Mudslide. She had to meet Ana though. Good thing Erika went with me and suggested to go to technohub. I bought a Mudshake, not a Mudslide (what's the difference btw?) and she ordered her coffee at CBTL. Again, it was light. I finished my drink and so did she. We talked about all sorts of things again. More light this time, nothing about current events and politics. It was fun!

I tried to wait for the kids from the pier but I felt so tired. Erika left and I sat there, sleepy, at CBTL. I decided to go home.

It's breezy!

Now I'm off to read Anne Frank again. Ciao!

Around the 9th and the 15th

I had a long week! Let's say finally, I am on "vacation" :) Still waiting for my consultation for 199. I do hope it would get a little better. i do not want to be forced to drop this subject. I have no plans of extending! I had minimal internet time this week. There were times to hang out though.

Last Tuesday, I went to NCPAG lib to photocopy an article. They librarian was a cold *****, she said they can't find the journal. "Nakita mo naman kung gaano kaagulo yun (shelves of foreign periodicals) di namin mahahanap yun." Wow so is it the students' job to fix the shelves now?

I decided to go to SOLAIR in the hopes to find the article in a more convenient, normal way. I was not disappointed. I actually love SOLAIR's library! It was cozy, and people free! :D



I met up with Pam and Thesa after to have lunch at Mr. Kabab. I felt so full I wanted to vomit.


I spent a few hours with Erika after class. We had a good conversation; mostly current events. I told her I remember telling myself I would never listen to A.M. radio. Well guess what? We were talking about A.M. radio programs, news, and commentators. Are we getting old?


Wednesday,I managed to pass my 199 revised exercises before the day ended. I went home right after submitting the papers. It was so humid, I needed to take a bath badly.


Thursday was another whatever-conversation with Erika at AS steps. The afternoon was a little dull and plain when we saw Kuya Philo emerging from AS parking lot. I KNOW RIGHT.


I felt my stomach stretch on Friday. Had dinner at Friuli at Pam. I never learn, I know. I refused to share the good-for-two pasta because I didn't really appreciate Friuli's carbonara. Pam insisted on ordering pizza. There, I (or we) ended up feeling so bloated. I was kind of dizzy when I got home (and felt compelled to eat with mom and dad, and I did. It made me feel more dizzy).


I woke up, (thank God!) and was ready for the next day! We were supposed to have a make up class in PS 167 at arround 4-6 p.m. Good thing classmaes were able to bargain the 12-2 slot.

Ayee and I were planning the previous night to watch "Up". We've been waiting for it for months now. Early in the morning we got disappointed with the information that it would be shown beginning on the 19th.


I decided to just go ukay-ukay then drop by to Ayee's house before heading home. We had isaw at Holy Angels then bought something for her mom at the grocery.


We stopped by the Ice Cream Store for my ice cream sandwich.




Again, as always, I was full! It wouldn't be a visit to Ayee if you won't say "nabusog ako!" before going home.

Pam is planning the long overdue Muchachos part 2! HAHA let's hope for the best. Lez go!

It's Another Friday!

My 199 paper was crap. I slept early last night because I wasn’t feeling well. I started to do the methodological insights just this morning. I was able to write a half page methodology. *%$&#%&(**(&$# she’s going to have an impression that I’m not taking things seriously. What a shame! My dad asked me “Kelan graduation mo, sa October?” suddenly I remembered my conversation with Ayee. I shouldn’t have told people I was about to graduate this sem. If I manage to pass 199, then it’ll just be a surprise and if I don’t, well they wouldn’t be that disappointed. Sayang! Me and my stupid mouth. Tsk. Now I’m anxious.

Anyway, I asked Ate Zen if we have class, she said we do. I wasn't able to go ro Hub. :|

After class, I went straight to C.M.C. to meet Miko. Pam came - you know what's next: FOOD! Haha we were thinking of where to eat and we went around to invite friends. Thesa was missing in action, Joy had a shoot, Neka has to meet her prof for her thesis consulatation. At least we managed to bully Carmi to come with us. HAHA.

We talked about a hypothetical situation: what if your girlfriend's brain dead and you want to break up with her?

We had different views. After discussing this I thought, well at least you're safe.

Ate Chicken Alfredo! Tagal ko ng di naka-kain nun ha. YUM! Thank God I can now chew chicken :D

LIGHT! Sakto lang sa Friday.

Photo: http://www.flickr.com/photos/briankingong/3356451848/

What a Roller Coaster Feeling

I did not have plans of posting anything today since I have lots of things to do. However, I think I need an outlet. It's almost 2am.

I had a great day. Things started to mess my mood when I got home though.

So first, today was Miko's dinner treat! We ate with Neka and Thesa. The conversations we had were so much fun and well, "interesting". Like what Miko said, it's feels good to know you have sensible friends. I always enjoy conversations that touch just about any part of life. I like it when we analyze (or anal-yze) things and not just talk about them. Why did the entrance of TOSH didn't look so TOSH, why does MRT represent the "market" that establishments would like to attract, why are activists finding it hard to mobilize people. Stuff like that. Anyway, the food and the conversations made my night. I even told Miko, I wanted to just sleep when I get home. It's like feeling "solb na ko sa araw na to". But we do what we have to do.

After an hour and a half, I got home. A little annoyed with the traffic, I went straight to check my mail. No emails from group mates - now I'm pissed. So then I took a nap, just to energize myself. I woke up just now, I haven't done anything for 199 yet. I checked my phone, no message from that someone. All the while I thought, maybe not yet home, maybe busy, maybe just a message to say good night. But I was wrong again. Parang wala na. Ewan ko.

I wish the conversations over dinner never ended - into this kind of atmosphere at least.

Thank you Miko, Thesa, Neka. Dinner was like some cushion that enabled me not to scream, thinking it was just one of those "crappiest days".